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Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Me and my friends watched Resident Evil just now at home. We even played the game after that. Didn't saved our progress @ the end which means that our times and efforts were wasted but still, we had loads of fun.
-------------------------------------------- The following entry contains issues about religion especially Islam. It may be offensive to some. So I advice you to be open minded about this. -------------------------------------------- Well here it goes. It was during MT period just now. Since our 'N' Level Mother Tongue papers have passed, we're free. I was reading my friend's Resident Evil book. I got bored eventually and joined a party of two of my classmates who were talking about personal issues. Another friend of mine joined in. So we chatted. The topics drifted from err ... hmm something to something about Islam. Pfft. Yeah they talked about some divine intervention thingy which was caught on tape or something. I became rather interested cos I was bored. So they talk .. and talk and talk. It was a fixed topic. More and more people joined in. So yeah. Then they talk about how the Christians hated Muslims and wishing they were all dead. Then, they went on criticising Christians. Well sorta. Thats the one thing I hate about some religions which is being narrow minded. Maybe they were misunderstood. Maybe not. But the bottom line is, they think that they are 'right'. "9 out of 10 wars are related to religion." e.g 9/11. Also started on talking about what was right and what was wrong. Hell, the people there who started the conversation.. i) Watches Pornography. Totally restricted. ii) Alcohol. =| iii) Acts cool. Theres nothing wrong with that actually. =p Talked about Heaven and Hell. Talked about Zidane converting from Muslim to Christian. "Gurantee masuk neraka." A friend of mine said. I found that funny. I was grinning but they didnt noticed. Narrow-mindedness. Its up to the individual actually. Anywho, I tried adding in some comments about Armageddon and stuff from my knowledge but they totally ignored me. I ended up leaving the party. I smirked and left. I joined another party and they too were talking about the same thing as they were in the same proximity. Eventually, I shrugged and left their area and sat alone in a desolated corner reading Resident Evil. A friend of mine who wasn't involved with any of those those parties came up to me and talked about games, movies, the paranormal and ghosts. We had fun. Managed to talk a lot of crap too. Welcome to my world. That doesn't mean I hate Islam or Muslims. I still have my respect for them as human beings and for what they believe in. Its just some people who looks at a person...and say something like .. "You're going to Hell and I am going to Heaven because I am a (insert religion)" because they are of a different religion. This applies to SOME people only. "I grew up a Jehovah's Witness because my grandmother was really influencing that lifestyle on me. That is a very morally intense religion. And although they keep you from experiencing a lot of the bad things that can really hurt you out there in the world, they are also depriving you from experiencing life. And a lot of things you learn from after being in life." - Michelle =] Sorry about this quote. I just can't help pasting it. Didn't mean to proselytize you or something. =p -------------------------------------------- Comments (0)
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Monday, September 29, 2003
Hahahahah!!!!!! I managed to finish the shit. All in under 20 minutes. Well anyway, school's tomorrow. So.. err well, ah 7 more fucking days til the 'N's. Nervous. As well as excited. Hahaa. I won't be blogging from the 6th til 13th. Just kidding. I hope I'll be able to do so. Well, I'll most probably be phlogging. Theres still school after the 'N's for some extra lessons.. express stuff. Which means the normal tech guys will be having fun while we'll be working our asses off. Speaking of asses.. woohoo, got to see those chicks again. ;)
Ehem.. moving on, my friend borrowed me his Resident Evil book. Haven't begun reading it yet. Looking forward to it. Just downloaded The fast and the furious. Hahaha. I've watched 2 fast 2 furious but havent catch the first one. So... yeah. Cool movie. I want a car! Cool gears and shit. Overall, cool movie even though I've only watched the first half of it. You know, I recently got this urge to act. Act as in.. drama or something. Seems fun. hurhur. Pyro`Rain> if i cant get to poly Pyro`Rain> o would probably end up in lasalle Pyro`Rain> u? Pyro`Rain> i* Paperd0ll> i wanan go lasalle Paperd0ll> take drama. Paperd0ll> u go lasalle do wad? Pyro`Rain> music Pyro`Rain> or maybe even drama Pyro`Rain> hahahaaaaaaaaaaa Pyro`Rain> since i got this errr.. Paperd0ll> urge to act? Paperd0ll> lol Pyro`Rain> uhuh Paperd0ll> why siah all of a sudden? Pyro`Rain> dunno Pyro`Rain> macam fun gitu I'v been watching too much movies. Well that's all the time I have. Tendtendtendetdnetdnedte yabedik yabedik yabedik yabedik That's all folks. (That was super uber lame) Carpe Diem. Oh wait... the girl in my previous .. previous post reminds me of a girl in my school. Similar voice, facial features and attitude. Oh yes btw, thats Michelle Rodriguez (referring to the pic). Mmmmm.. Comments (0)
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I am bored. Anyway, its been a while since I've updated my blog. Nothing really special happened these past few days. Also, I am getting agitated by this song. Now Listening: Nothing Its 10:37. Screw my homework. Its obvious I won't be handing it in tomorrow. After a long pause, I've decided to end my entry here. Comments (0)
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Friday, September 26, 2003
Michelle Rodriguez
I fell in love with her after watching Resident Evil. Her guns too. =P Comments (0)
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Wednesday, September 24, 2003
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Twas a dark and stormy night... Anywho, a typical day in school today except for .. My middle finger and thumb was partially burnt during DNT and now I won't be playing guitar 'right' for a while. Notes skipping and shit. Aku pegi pegnag drill bit besar when my friend finished using it.. *slaps his forehead*. I even said "Oh you bloody idiot" to myself and.. "AHHHH!! I WILL PROBABLY NEVER PLAY MY GUITAR AGAIN!". The pain was unbearable but now it has "died down". Haha. Luckily. I was like so kiasu, jakun and that kinda shit. Now.. my stupid computer is slow in terms of its speed. I need a new computer. =(. Comments (0)
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Monday, September 22, 2003
Twas a bad day at school today. Once again, I was filled with anger and frustration for the 5th time this month. I do not know what has happened to meeee. Well first of all theres this extra hard Chemistry mock examination which I've not been warned of, or I wasn't paying attention during the previous lesson. I was "eenie-meenie-my-nee mo-ing" all the way. Hahaha. It would take a miracle for me to pass. Utter bullshit. Then theres DNT actually it was mother tongue period but since my N Level Malay papers have passed, my DNT teacher told us to continue our work. Thennnn... was in a very happy mood until I get to go downstairs to see the instructors, smiling.. when she demanded me to reduce one of my circuits to half.. the umm.. donut board which means I have to desolder and solder and wire wrap AGAIN. My smile was obliterated. I mean, there.. *poof* my temper which resurrected after the June holidays. Well anyway, carried the dumb ass circuits up to the workshop. My teacher then asked me what I was doing. I replied with a low tone, "Now.. I must reduce this stupid thing in half". Haha. He was err.. had a funny expression and told me to bring my whole project up from the instructor's workshop. Of course, he got angry. But Big deal. Down I go again, trying to maintain my smile but ended up screaming at a friend of mine because my teacher wanted to see him too. I am really sorry for that. Uhuh, grabbed my stuff, head up to the workshop again. He said I can put some acrylic shit so that it can overlap on top of each other. Haha was I RELIEVED or what. Then I began smiling and laughing. "Hahaha OHHH!!! Like that ah but Mdm Asimah said cannot?! HAHAHAHA!" I exclaimed. "Can lahhh" replied my teacher. After that I gotta drill holes for some of the circuit components and shit and time was up. After school, met Fauzee and Kamarul, who planned on slacking at my house. Yeah, went home with them. "Eh ziq, bukak computer.. heh. nak chat ah.. heh." Hahaha. Yeh and he msged tons of girls. Got their numbers. After that both Fauzee and Kamarul surfed porn for a good 3 hours. Gurantee steam kering lol. Me? I played Smackdown 2 and Driver 2, watched TV for a while and played guitar for a while too. Yeh they went back at 5:45pm. Played guitar for a while after they left, then watched the Simpsons. Played guitar after that, chatted.. played guitar again.. chatted and now blogging. I'll do my homework later. ^_^
Now Listening: Dream Theater - Six Degrees Of Inner Turbulence Comments (0)
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Sunday, September 21, 2003
She's mine =P~ Comments (0)
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 You're Most Like The Season Autumn ... You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle prescence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company. However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking. Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :) ?? Which Season Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla  Morpheus ?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla  Lord of the Rings! What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!) brought to you by Quizilla Hahahaha! Comments (0)
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A cool Sunday morning. Silence and shit in the house. Only me being active. The others.. in dreamland or lala land or their astral plane or so on. (rip off from Yadi) Have a look at this idiot. 
Who does he think he is? Oh by the way.. thats me. Haha. Today was a fine day. I mean yesterday. Woke up at around 8:45 and continued with my DNT folio. Bathe at 9:15 and head off to school. Did some of my DNT shit. Again as always. My hands were super glued to the instructors table. Lol. Was funny. We joked about it and then, leaving my handprints all over the table. Of course, it hurt like hell. After tat blah blah bullshit, went back home. Went into my room, immediately plug in my guitar. Recorded a cover of Crimson Sunrise which was the intro of Dream Theater's A Change of Seasons. I'll put up a link of it in the near future. =] After around 16 attempts, I finally got the perfect one which was still a load of crap. Hahaa. After which, I slept for umm.. 5 hours or so. Woke up and thought it was a school day. Lol. Only to find out it was still a Saturday. Downloaded, a live video of A Change of Seasons. 260mb. Ahhhh. Worth every byte. =P Syed said that today's gig was great. Oh well, too bad I had school. Surfing, chatting, eating, surfing again, watching a couple of videos, watched tv, chat again until now. Just chatted with my ex. Did bring a lot of memories. Haha. She left and now I am blogging. Har har. Going to Syed's house tomorrow for some jamming shit. Yehh!! Looking forward to it. Playing his 707 and stuff. Oh well, tons of homework to be done. a) Don't do em. Ignore em.. probably get into trouble or get killed or slaughtered and whatnot. b) Do em. Well I'll go with B. Yours Sincerely, klwdcwjklwfdkl Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Friday, September 19, 2003
Hey, like the new look? =D
Now Listening: The Jon Barry Project - Latin Breeze School was fine. The normal typical day @ school. After school, I hang out at Farhan's with Yasir watching 2 Fast 2 Furious. Haha great show. School again tomorrow. Ahhhh. D&T again. =P Bleargh. I will not be going to tomorrow's gig at Thomson because I'll be busy tomorrow and also, I've gotten bored of local bands. =\ Som I'll be either be at school or home the entire day tomorrow which is.. err.. great.. sorta. I am hungry. Well anyway, sorry for this short ass post as I am feeling depressed, happy, sad, angry and tired simultaneously. In short: I am not feeling well. =( Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Bleargh,
Hello. ^_^ Now Listening: Dream Theater - A Change Of Seasons Had loads of fun just now. Immediately after school, me and my friends decided to slack @ my house for a while. A friend of mine wanted to use my comp for chatting, and ended up inviting a whole bunch of my classmates. Yeh we had fun. List of the things we did: - Watched a wrestling match I downloaded. - Watch some porno. =P - Played guitar. - Played "Fisherman's Bait" ... its a fishing video game. (We had a round robin tournament thingy) ^_^ - Chatted on IRC. And after that, they left. Of course. =) I did badly for my Geo tests which I've had for two consecutive days asking us to reminisce certain topics and writing it down on a piece of paper. All my points were wrong and stuff. Har har. Weee.. tomorrow is Thursday.. then Friday .. then Saturday. ^_^ Bleargh. =[ Yours Sincerely, Zeek. Carpe Diem. =D Comments (0)
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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Haha sorry for the previous post.
School was fine. Nothing special happened except err.. well nothing special happened. I skipped Maths class cos I wanted to complete my DnT stuff but turns out my DnT teacher wasn't there to test my circuits except for the instructors, who doesnt know shit about electronics. Haha. So I went home, log on and got Well anywhat, I am back with Raszman and co. I do mean.. 'Natural Selection'. They invited me back in for .. err.. I didn't know for what reason but I am glad to be back in. Hahaha. Jamming sessions after final year examinations though ('O' and 'N' Levels). I've gotten tons of praises from my Geography teacher because I followed everything that she has taught me. Even called me a 'saviour'. Ok enough bragging. =P I am currently on IRC.. I am always on IRC. Alcoholica - Dead silent Bnss_Melayu - Ditto Melayu - Super Active as always. Metal_Brutal - Hahaha. Dead active. A lot of poseur talk took place there yesterday. Dhalif asked me to go in and take a look at the situation and.. -- Son4t4> haha~.....aku nasihatkan kao..takmo terlalu into this kind of thing... Son4t4> cumer main setakat main...relek2.... Hes talking about guitar playing.. Lek_Suar> ahha Petrucci> betul Lek_Suar> asal plak.. Lek_Suar> aku minat abis.. Son4t4> kena maintain sembahyang......kalao kao skip......jangan main guitar lagi... Son4t4> nasihat... At this point the conversation transcended into something out of point and also, Dhalif was probably laughing his ass off. Petrucci> macam macam ni pak awang (This comment was made in private. Lol) Lek_Suar> Aku baru blaja jugak guitar.. dah freak giler nie.. Son4t4> tau~..dulu semangat aku pon membara...i want to be seen.. Lek_Suar> then Son4t4> i wanna perform..i wanna beat the rest ..i wanna learn that scale...i feel liek making tat solo.. Lek_Suar> yes me 2 Son4t4> tu lah semangat nyer..but..it all comes to nuthin lah arctually... -- Messiah`> what the hell is wrong with this guy 
Well anyway, rockers-arena - dead. Vart_Sorority - Dead. Basically, most of the channels I am in is mostly dead which explains the previous post. Boredom. Actually, I was overdosed with those mints. Hahaa. Oh yes, Mr. Tan Choon Lye, my physics teacher is by far, the worst teacher I have ever seen but he has improved in terms of control compared to when he first entered the school. He make look like a nerd. Well err.. he is one. Kinda. I don't understand what he teachers or rather bambling about during physics lessons. No really. He's flawless when it comes to his language.. Singlish.
Its 12 now. Maybe I should get some sleep. I'll be having a Geo test tomorrow. Wish me luck. 
See ya tomorrow or something, Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Monday, September 15, 2003
Ahhhhhhhhh! Hahaha!!! Look at those #melayu idiotssssssss.
NoMotiv> believe in anarchism HAAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!! You want that shit go govern your own country, and go against your government. boysejuk-> wat do u guys wish to see on a packaging bottle of a french alcoholic drink?? <- french flag with a an anarchy logo in the middle Hahhaaaaaaaaa! Sial ah cool habis siallllllllllllllll. Sembahyang takmoh mau minum alcohol. Hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. NoMotiv> y are we all so afraid to be united....? NoMotiv> to fight in wat we believe in.... NoMotiv> laws control people... NoMotiv> n people shudn b controlled.... Here the fucking hero speak. ¬¬ NoMotiv> they shud be allowed to express their feelings freely NoMotiv> without being afraid of being chased by the cops NoMotiv> bt wat i really feel NoMotiv> wat i believe in You want that shit, go to Switzeland. Thank god for Social Studies.
Sorry for this weird post. I had too much Frozz Cherry Mints. 
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Well anywho it was a boring, normal typical day. Blaahhh. I read this article just now regarding Saddam's fall and how free the people are right now in terms of entertainment.. like movies and stuff. Get this.. now they sell porno openly around Iraq. Lol. During Saddam's regime.. they do not allow such materials to be sold. Therefore, some people did it the illegal way: black market. Now they sell porn and stuff all over the streets I think. Hahaha. PORNOMANIA! Well anyway.. I haven't completed my homework yet. Muaahahaha. = Hrm. lalala. I'll be back later or err tomorrow. Weee. Bye. Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Sunday, September 14, 2003
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Friday, September 12, 2003
Just finished watching the Simpsons.
Oh.. guess what.. I have discovered pimples on my face! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( I seriously need to get rid of em. Any tips? =P (TAGBOARD!) Comments (0)
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Uh oh. 
Oh btw, thats from Astrocenter.com Comments (0)
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- Studies - Guitar Playing - and all the other bullshit I usually do. Whats wrong with me? =[ Ah its all psychological. Well hello. This has been a fucked up week therefore don't be surpirsed to see some anger in my entries. First of all, I've been treated like crap in school. People ignoring me and stuff and staring at me as if I am some sort of an anomaly to them. Bullshit. I don't like to be pushed around and be taken advantage of just because I am 'nice'. Well maybe too 'nice'. Hell, sometimes I just don't feel like doing 'it'. You people and your bullcrap. (refering to some of my classmates) Just because I am not 'normal' or my character, beliefs and opinions are not similar to yours doesn't mean I am some alienated being or something. Pathetic. But there are some who understands me and I thank you for that. =) For you losers out there who has got nothing to do but discriminate people for your personal enjoyment, go fuck yourselves. There.. I feel much better.
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Thursday, September 11, 2003
John Petrucci and Chris Jericho. Best of both worlds
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Sunday, September 07, 2003
Now Listening: Muse - Bliss
Whenever I play this song, Fizah comes to my mind since shes a big Muse and Radiohead fan. =P First and foremost, I would like to say goodbye to Izuan because.. ]Salonpas> i've decided ]Salonpas> i'm giving up evrything tml ]s}{4ZzY> tml? ..»¤´ ]Salonpas> internet...irc..msn messenger... ]Salonpas> games.. ]Salonpas> bla bla bla ]Pyro`Fu_K> huh? ]Salonpas> and i shall revise! Sad day indeed. =( Well happy revising and good luck for your Os and see you in school or something. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Malay paper tomorrow and I am still slacking my ass off. What am I doing? Oh wait.. I only have this dwibahasa kamus to go through and some worksheets to go through at 10:30 while listening to some kick ass music! >:D Oh yes and slack is good to a certain extent. I've been eating a lot especially this past few days. haiz. I need some veggies in my gut too!
After my N's, I shall work out intensively. Weee. Join some membership at some gym or something or just slack at home and remain as a fat fuck. Why am I being so vain?
Ah hell. Good luck Zeek for your paper tomorrow. Oh thank you.
Weeee. Well I am off. Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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This guy is my fucking hero! I met him in my dream once.
Yes I really did. I met him @ Eunos MRT Station before he was scheduled to have a performance here in Singapore or rather .. dreamland.
One of the corniest dreams I have ever had but it was more like a divine intervention to me.
Well anyway.. Hello. Now Listening: Dream Theater - Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence Boring Sunday afternoon eh? Its 3:45pm now. I was planning on studying some malay but later. Haha. My N Level Malay Paper is tomorrow. *Sigh* Well wish me luck. I really hope I can do very well in it but heh.. I'll study for it later.
In the meantime, I'll just listen to some music and compose a song which I am working on out of boredom which sounds very shitty and maybe play some guitar. Boredom. I'll be back later at night. Cherios. Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Wednesday, September 03, 2003
Now Listening: Yes - Close To The Edge
Another mundane and wasted(?) day has passed. My D&T teacher wasn't present in school today.. so the whole four periods of D&T .. I spent 45 minutes helping out my friends with their projects and 1hr 15mins talking crap with my mates. Hahaha. Everyone was trying to discriminate the other which was quite silly actually. Talked about girls and stuff even though there were girls in the group. All the conversations which took place were mainly common topics you would hear coming out from estranged 16 year-olds. ¬¬ Well anywho, I am sleepy. Sorry for the short entry. =P Promise to make an even longer entry tomorrow horr. Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Now Listening: Symphony X - Rediscovery (New Mythology)
Heres an issue: [Pyro`Fu_K> ah sial wasted [Pyro`Fu_K> racial harmony aku amik satu gambar jer [Pyro`Fu_K> hahahahaha [Pyro`Fu_K> hahahahahaaha [Pyro`Fu_K> wat the hell [Pyro`Fu_K> =[Keymaker> shaz [Keymaker> yang gamba aku kau wel [Keymaker> besok kasi aku?aku scan [Pyro`Fu_K> i need to take more pictures with people [ [Keymaker> fuck [Pyro`Fu_K> i want a video camera [Pyro`Fu_K> boleh amik video [Pyro`Fu_K> hahaha As always.. being the introvert I am.. I don't usually mix around with people which makes me an arcane. Blah. Yeah.. I took only one pic on Racial Harmony and why the hell did I went home soon after? Oh yes.. I was pretty pissed off on that day. There was a huge burn mark from ironing on my baju kurung and of course that embarassed me a lot which pissed me off but I don't think many people noticed but still.. its quite visible. Am I talking in circles? Good. =P I'll be a happy man if I'll still be around next year. Secondary 5. Hahaha. In the same stupid school again and the same idiotic rules .. err.. uhm.. but it still beats ITE because you get an opportunity to go to either Polytechnic or Junior College. Oh yes speaking of whic.. My Preliminary results so far..
That made me chuckle. Theres no way in hell I am passing Malay for my N Levels. I am that damn bad. lol. Why am I being happy? Hmm.. Nvm. Well anyway.. I'll be back tomorrow. =D Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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Monday, September 01, 2003
Haha.
Now listening: Evanescence - Tourniquet Its 11:45pm and I should be sleeping right now. I have been eating a lot this couple of these days. Haha I did stated that in the previous post right I mean.. the previous.. previous x4 post? Ah yes. I think so. Who gives a crap anyway. A typical day nonetheless. Woke up, ate, computer, ate, nap, computer, ate, irc, game, ate, ate , ate. Darn. I shalt cut down on food intake starting from tomorrow. Hurhur or else I'll end up looking like Rikishi or something. =( Also, I have been not that active these few days too. Didn't went out. Just staying at home.. I need to be more active. I must! Well, off to bed. =D Carpe Diem and sorry for the short post. har har. Comments (0)
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Well here it goes: --- A Short Story by Terry Dobson - a master of Aikido and conflict resolution THE TRAIN CLANKED and rattled through the suburbs of Tokyo on a drowsy spring afternoon. Our car was comparatively empty - a few housewives with their kids in tow, some old folks going shopping. I gazed absently at the drab houses and dusty hedgerows. At one station the doors opened, and suddenly the afternoon quiet was shattered by a man bellowing violent, incomprehensible curses. The man staggered into our car. He wore laborer’s clothing, and he was big, drunk, and dirty. Screaming, he swung at a woman holding a baby. The blow sent her spinning into the laps of an elderly couple. It was a miracle that she was unharmed. Terrified, the couple jumped up and scrambled toward the other end of the car. The laborer aimed a kick at the retreating back of the old woman but missed as she scuttled to safety. This so enraged the drunk that he grabbed the metal pole in the center of the car and tried to wrench it out of its stanchion. I could see that one of his hands was cut and bleeding. The train lurched ahead, the passengers frozen with fear. I stood up. I was young then, some 20 years ago, and in pretty good shape. I’d been putting in a solid eight hours of aikido training nearly every day for the past three years. I like to throw and grapple. I thought I was tough. Trouble was, my martial skill was untested in actual combat. As students of aikido, we were not allowed to fight. "Aikido," my teacher had said again and again, "is the art of reconciliation. Whoever has the mind to fight has broken his connection with the universe. If you try to dominate people, you are already defeated. We study how to resolve conflict, not how to start it." I listened to his words. I tried hard I even went so far as to cross the street to avoid the chimpira, the pinball punks who lounged around the train stations. My forbearance exalted me. I felt both tough and holy. In my heart, however, I wanted an absolutely legitimate opportunity whereby I might save the innocent by destroying the guilty. This is it! I said to myself, getting to my feet. People are in danger and if I don’t do something fast, they will probably get hurt. Seeing me stand up, the drunk recognized a chance to focus his rage. "Aha!" He roared. "A foreigner! You need a lesson in Japanese manners!" I held on lightly to the commuter strap overhead and gave him a slow look of disgust and dismissal. I planned to take this turkey apart, but he had to make the first move. I wanted him mad, so I pursed my lips and blew him an insolent kiss. "All right! He hollered. "You’re gonna get a lesson." He gathered himself for a rush at me. A split second before he could move, someone shouted "Hey!" It was earsplitting. I remember the strangely joyous, lilting quality of it - as though you and a friend had been searching diligently for something, and he suddenly stumbled upon it. "Hey!" I wheeled to my left; the drunk spun to his right. We both stared down at a little old Japanese man. He must have been well into his seventies, this tiny gentleman, sitting there immaculate in his kimono. He took no notice of me, but beamed delightedly at the laborer, as though he had a most important, most welcome secret to share. "C’mere," the old man said in an easy vernacular, beckoning to the drunk. "C’mere and talk with me." He waved his hand lightly. The big man followed, as if on a string. He planted his feet belligerently in front of the old gentleman, and roared above the clacking wheels, "Why the hell should I talk to you?" The drunk now had his back to me. If his elbow moved so much as a millimeter, I’d drop him in his socks. The old man continued to beam at the laborer. "What’cha been drinkin’?" he asked, his eyes sparkling with interest. "I been drinkin’ sake," the laborer bellowed back, "and it’s none of your business!" Flecks of spittle spattered the old man. "Ok, that’s wonderful," the old man said, "absolutely wonderful! You see, I love sake too. Every night, me and my wife (she’s 76, you know), we warm up a little bottle of sake and take it out into the garden, and we sit on an old wooden bench. We watch the sun go down, and we look to see how our persimmon tree is doing. My great-grandfather planted that tree, and we worry about whether it will recover from those ice storms we had last winter. Our tree had done better than I expected, though especially when you consider the poor quality of the soil. It is gratifying to watch when we take our sake and go out to enjoy the evening - even when it rains!" He looked up at the laborer, eyes twinkling. As he struggled to follow the old man’s conversation, the drunk’s face began to soften. His fists slowly unclenched. "Yeah," he said. "I love persimmons too…" His voice trailed off. "Yes," said the old man, smiling, "and I’m sure you have a wonderful wife." "No," replied the laborer. "My wife died." Very gently, swaying with the motion of the train, the big man began to sob. "I don’t got no wife, I don’t got no home, I don’t got no job. I am so ashamed of myself." Tears rolled down his cheeks; a spasm of despair rippled through his body. Now it was my turn. Standing there in well-scrubbed youthful innocence, my make-this-world-safe-for-democracy righteousness, I suddenly felt dirtier than he was. Then the train arrived at my stop. As the doors opened, I heard the old man cluck sympathetically. "My, my," he said, "that is a difficult predicament, indeed. Sit down here and tell me about it." I turned my head for one last look. The laborer was sprawled on the seat, his head in the old man’s lap. The old man was softly stroking the filthy, matted hair. As the train pulled away, I sat down on a bench. What I had wanted to do with muscle had been accomplished with kind words. I had just seen aikido tried in combat, and the essence of it was love. I would have to practice the art with an entirely different spirit. It would be a long time before I could speak about the resolution of conflict. Terry Dobson copyright (c)1983, 1997 by Context Institute --- Comments (0)
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i) Mathematics ii) Music Theory iii) HTML at home. =\ Comments (0)
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Well anywho, I've been playing a lot of curry man ... I mean guitars nowadays that I forgot that N levels is around the corner hahaha. Yesterday night, I played for two hours and later in the afternoon another 2 hours. Study - 0 hours. Forgive me for talking crap. Heh. Theres this 13 yr old guy from England who has been bothering me for this past few days and whenever he comes online, I'll click on 'Appear Offline' until he logs off. Haha. Hoorayy! I am Bender. The whole house is filled with silence well.. not really. I am the one who is currently making all the noises and so on and so on (rips off from Yadi) =P. I'll be posting up some new links in the future. I've been downloading some DT stuff.. well a lot of DT these few days and also some 'catfight' videos. Woohoo. Oil wrestling and shit. DT stuff <-- gets me motivated (in guitar playing) Catfights <-- Hmm. Rather obvious. =D Brb. Nature calls. -- Back. Just found out that my dad is up for sembahyang subuh. I am downloading a DT music video. I can't seem to find out as to why I am addicted to their music. Maybe because its their style. Oh well, bear with me. =P I think Ima go log off now so... Cherios. Carpe Diem. Comments (0)
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