Now Listening: (secret band) - Alone And Unaware, (find the rest of the title yourself)

I've submerged myself in a world of regret. I followed the wrong path to what seemed to be a blessing .. yes but only short-lived or ephemeral. The trail that led me to my own demise. I've destroyed myself. The sudden realisation of me being human. I have this one life.. to live and outlive myself. To be me. I ramble here and now, to extinguish this thoughts of self misery. But to no avail. A perennial itch that eats you up bit by bit. I wish there was a physical rewind button so that I can right the wrongs, to change, to derail the physics of time.. well to change by will. But if there were to be a choosing.. would I make this choice? Would I risk changing the fate of every being, cell, particle, atom just for a handful of wrong doings that sticks into your skin, sinking deeper and deeper before it tears you apart that you can feel the pain.. illusive but yet so real? What is real anyway?

I won't and I can't.

This intervention, I cannot let go, I cannot forget. I will cherish.