My mind is blocked. I can't help but to feel fucked up right now. I fear disappointment and got it. Slapped me right in the fucking face. I've always have envisioned the otherwise to what I am feeling right now. The fucking euphoric Zeek. Yeah fucking right. I am not getting that now. This marks the darkest turning point I am having right now in my life. I am trying to psyche myself into thinking that ITE isn't that bad. But hahaha nooooooooo. Tears can't flow. Cos that will be gay. Theres no point in crying cos that won't fucking change anything. You all know that. What the fuck am I gonna do now? Try to take some stupid course and fucking try to keep my head up for the rest of my life? Yeah work hard. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF TRYING TO WORK FUCKING HARD IN THIS FUCKED UP SOCIETY. Oh yeah I can go on and on and on. But I know you wouldn't that.

Fortunately however, I didn't vent my anger on anyone .. yet. Lets hope not. I am not gonna sleep well for the next few days. I just wish that I am living a nightmare right now, hoping to wake up. Am I dreaming? Guess not.

I will try to live my life to the fullest before submitting myself again to the fucking Government. Get away from me.

zK taped a piece at 2/28/2005 04:39:00 PM

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