Ok I think I shall update my blog now.

These past few days have been very stressful for me. Very tensed and tight period. But, you know me, I take things lightly. I don't really study that much. Well since primary school, I've based my results on luck and kinda like.. on the spot thinking. I am a very lazy guy ah. I want to study but seems like I don't have the will to do so. Not to mention, getting distracted by other things super easily.

I spent the whole day yesterday lifelessly in front of the computer. Yep whole day. Got into a heated conflict with my sister. I got into a damn fucked up mood. I slept early. I didn't chat much. I hated myself. Now I am ok again. I think its time to change. My sis wrote a 3 page essay on what she thinks of me right now. Man, I am really disappointed with myself. People don't understand me yeh. But now, to the extent of not understanding yourself.. is just plain weird, scary and I don't know.. strange. I've been very distant from my family since I got this CPU and the divorce. Just making things worst. Its time to change and I've started today. I've managed to study! Finally. D&T. I've gone through 3 chapters in 2 hours. Time to read up and study on another one.. Tools and shit. Very weak in that area and also, a little bit on electronics. Also, gonna go through my Physics. Revise on Waves and all. Physics and D&T paper tomorrow. Wish me luck.

On a lighter note.. this past weekend was a blast! Hanging out with the #powermetal guys were great! Certainly diverted all my thinking away from studying into a world where you don't care what people think by doing stuff that you love and just to have fun. I've never had so much fun in a while right now.

On music.. I would like to have a break right now. Please, fellow band members. If you're reading this, please understand. I need to have a break. I really need to catch up with all my studies. Its ok if you want to kick me out or replace me.. a much less hostile word. Cos I've developed other interests. I would like to form my own project band one day. I don't know. Its just like nowadays.. I've lost interest in music well not entirely of course. Ok, a more straightforward remark is that, I wanna form a band of a genre that I've always wanted to do. Some jazzy grindcore progressive technical whatever music. I want my feelings to be generated through the music. Ok I am not being selfish. Ok I am being selfish. So shoot me.

Right now however, I want to tune myself into what I've always wanted to become.. a smart ass scientist. Haha. It has always been my ambition since I was Little Zeek. Its kinda cool. All you have to do is to come up with some equations, theories.. sit in a lab testing out chemicals and destroy some stuff if you're lucky.

I've also developed an interest in a specific sport. Its not really a sport but a fusion of arts and sports. Its called Parkour. Its basically.. 'freerunning' like skateboarding without a skateboard. I am really inspired by the discipline and the entire concept. Its kinda like a new sport so.. I bet most of you don't know what 'Parkour' is but its fun. I am kinda into extreme sports. Just trying new stuff even if it means killing you. So yeah. Thanks a lot Hyder. Hahaha.

So yeah, I guess thats all. Til then.

zK taped a piece at 9/15/2004 07:33:00 PM

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